All I really want is peace and general happiness. Just overall okay-ness, you know what I fucking mean? There’s always too much shit, too many little pebbles, too many little shits. I’m tired of it. So tired of it. And you Idiotic people, Don’t you realize what you’re doing? Feeding into the loads of bullshit that blinds you to the truth of the matter that makes you really unhappy. I know you’re tired of it. Tired of compromising. Tired of dealing with the detours and pitstops that really slow you down, making you lose that brilliant race. I’d love to create that paradise, but someone would come and fuck it up. Over analyze it and give pointless things value ruining work that could have surmounted all the tales of deities and supernatural alike. I’m so fucking tired.
Right now I feel betrayed, what my family says is that “there comes a time when you have to realize how things work.” Not exactly but something to that measure. No it’s not the summance, No it’s not my girlfriend (who is still lovely as ever in my opinion), No it’s not ‘rents, Not the fam (but shit do they get on my nerves), Je pense c’est moi! Oui! I don’t know exactly how to explain it but i’ll try.
It’s like the feeling you’d get after beating the shit out of your worst enemy and taking his girlfriend (with courtesy of course) and realizing that the dude didn’t really do shit to you at all.
Maybe that’s inaccurate.
It’s like when if you were to cheat on your girlfriend in the same bed you fuck your girlfriend in. It just fucks everything up.
Still inaccurate. I’m on a learning curve slowly sliding down to the top percentages whilst dealing with the earthquakes and volcanoes that I left for the peace I thought would be brilliant. It just makes me miss the earthquakes and the hot lava touching your skin ( I fucking miss that so much).
So shit has happened. But of course that’s nothing new. Shit happens, days go by.
But recently I’ve been feeling that feeling like shit really isn’t happening. As if the world moves and all the lands stay in the same place. Regardless, I’m still Andrew and I’ll continue to Andrew it up.